This vacation has brought some changes in me-more in the negative sense-and I blame no-one for this change-not even myself!
Many a-times when at night I dont get sleep(that's coz I sleep the whole day),I keep thinking- dont know what crap do I think-bloody me! Among all those crap thoughts this one comes to my mind- "What do I want to do in this life?" At first, this seemed strange to me as I had never before thought of this and I had neglected this for days. But it started happening on a daily basis and then there was no way out- damn!
Sometimes I think what do I to do with this degree... how does studying Phy and Chem,other those subjects, and that cramming up,getting 8.5 or 9.5 or whatever it may be....gonna be of what use? Frankly speaking, we dont do much in college...studying before exams and writing exams and writing some programs. What is this? What kinda thing is this.... writing
#include something.h
main()
{
//something crap
}
then cc and run.... what has someone to do with printing Fibonnaci series or entering details,searching,sorting and those those.... what f*****g things!
When I used to hear of engg coleges before,it always fascinated me and I beleived engineers gonna change the world.... I dont see that now... nor does anyone else changes.
Now what I wanna do? Earning 4 lakhs or 8 lakhs or 14 lakhs per year... 9 to 5 office toad-work... marry, have children and then you are gone? What have you done....
I thought to do something to keep these away..some project kinda thing... but I soon realised I am going to be an engineer... The unwilling,led by the unknowing who does the impossible for the ungrateful. 'Ungrateful?'- yes! I have seen many people now-a-days thinking comp.sc. enggs as nothing!
We do nothing... stare at each girl we find outside campus(inside as well,though the quality differs)- and the girls even play... they think the NITians are dying to take any girl out-damn!
Ha ha...if you are emotionally numbed,creatively starved and socially outcasted...congrats for being in an engg college!
4 comments:
Hmm. At times retrospection is important. It makes the person believe more in ownself, what s/he wants to do in life (specially in a practically possible way); what is her/his priorities.
Chill dude! What you are going through - almost always everybody goes through that phase. While what you are thinking is the extreme and could potentially have negative connotation - yet KEEP THIS FIRE BURNING. Many people let this fire die and that is why they die un-noticed. Think but don't act until you are sure - and as long as you are not sure, go with the flow and TRUST your professors at college. They are your best friends there :-)
Yes Sid,everyone goes through this phase sometime in life...the easiest way to stop this is by not taking an afternoon nap:-D..on a serious note i understand ur feelings..What is the importance of an single "Ex" in such a long life where u will give numerous such exams??? But still we care so much about the 9 points..isint it??But then these small things do make a larger life...So chill..Try to do whatever u enjoy..things which give u satisfaction..just dont go along with the masses...And life at engg colleges isint that dull..u will soon discover newer dimensions:-)
Happy New Year n wishing u another wonderful Sem..must be getting ready for ur registration
"We have, each on of us, a role to fulfil, a task to do, a place which we alone can occupy."
I agree with all above comments. And very soon you will see that the college days are over and you will recall the "good old days" :)
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